Dave Mustaine

2012.02.11

I just had the most intriguing experience.  I awoke around 9am this morning, well rested and ready to start the day.  I felt a bm (bowel movement) coming on, which is a good thing because one of my goals is complete health and detoxification, which requires the appearance of at least 1 bm per day.  For the past decade I was lucky if I had one every third day!

Anyway, I did my business and as usual, going to bathroom aggravated my hemorrhoids.  For the record, since I’ve been taking God’s Herbs, there has been a noticeable difference in the elasticity of my anus and the level of swelling that occurs has been decreasing dramatically!

Another factor that seems to be speeding the healing is my use of an aloe gel that is safe for internal use (preferably organic), both to assist with thorough wiping and to apply as a cooling salve.  When hemorrhoids swell, they generate a lot of inflammation and heat.  The aloe soothes the inflammation and thus reduces the heat and irritation.

After having a go, I find a hot bath is very therapeutic, (in the dark, sometimes with incense burning as well) and directly effective in shrinking the hemorrhoids.

So there I was, lights off, with nothing but my own mind to keep me company, laying submerged, my face the only part of me sticking out.  Then my mind started open.  I began dwelling on how I can help the world.  What could I do to make a difference?

While contemplating these things, it occurred to me as a somewhat unexpected answer from the universal cosmic intelligence, of which we are all woven and interconnected to, that I could write to people I admire.  “How is that going to solve the world’s problems?”, I thought.  But, a voice, perhaps the voice of my higher self, for whom I am the avatar in this universe, and who guides me to my destiny, replied back: “Just do it.”

Relaxing in my tub, my mind could not help but to start working out solutions to my challenges.  The first somewhat profound thought that I had was that maybe what we call problems with a negative connotation, are really gifts of challenge.  It is as if a higher intelligence has said “Here’s a problem lots of people struggle with … I’m giving you the gift of that problem and your reward will be the satisfaction of finding the solution, and then teaching it to others.”

Wow.  Sometimes, I’m amazed at how much I grown from the negative person I used to be.  I don’t say this to brag, but rather to recognize and appreciate how far I’ve come on my journey, where I’m at, and where I’m going.

The next, final, and possibly weirdest thing that was revealed to me before my bath was over, was that I needed to write a letter to Dave Mustaine of the heavy metal band Megadeth.  Mr. Mustaine has always been a hero of mine ever since I discovered thrash metal music as a refuge and solace from the shitty world that was always against me (what I believed for a long time), in my High School years.

My mind began composing the letter while I soaked in sub-sauna temperatures:

Dear Dave,

Ever since I, like many of my generation, discovered your music as a high school student, you have been a great hero of mine.  As I’m sure you’ve heard from many others, your music got me through some really hard times when I felt alienated and estranged from the world.

I was moved to write you recently when I saw you performing with Metallica at their 30th anniversary event.  I don’t know if you’ll understand this because I don’t completely, but I almost cried and experienced a kind of catharsis when I saw you onstage with those whom you publicly despised for so long.

Perhaps what happens is we view our heroes as a sort of extended family member.  This may be why when we see celebrities whom we admire doing the wrong things, that we become disappointed in them, the same way we would in a brother or sister who’s messing up.  My prayers have been with you during your times of trouble with drugs, anger, and addiction.  Similarly, I have rejoiced of your triumphs including the birth of your son Justis, when you were trying to rid your demons with rehab, and when you played live with Metallica during the “Big Four” tour a few years ago.

I have never written a fan letter before, but something told me today “You need to write to Dave Mustaine” so here I am putting the pen to paper.  More to the point though, I wanted to tell you that when I saw you on stage playing with Lars, James, Ron McGovney, and Lloyd Grant, you really seemed to be having a great time.  It was as if you had finally put your burden down and forgiven those whom you had held a grudge against for so long (James and Lars).  Forgive me if this sounds weird, but in that moment, I wanted to hug you and tell you how proud I am of you.

In my own life I have come to realize something the most enlightened spiritual leaders have taught for many millennia:  When you forgive others who have wronged or hurt you in some way you are not saying “It was okay that you did that”, but rather you are releasing yourself from their control.  As the Christian theologian Lewis B. Smedes said: “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and realize that prisoner was you.”  A famous Indian revolutionary once uttered something I hold dear to my heart: “The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”  That revolutionary’s name was Mohandas Gandhi-The Mahatma!

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” -Mahatma Gandhi

I believe the impossible is always possible once we believe it so.  To that end, I plan on becoming a Millionaire in the next few months.  Subsequently, I am seeking opportunities for philanthropy and to really make a positive contribution to healing the world.

As a leader, one of my greatest strengths is being able to recognize the potential in others — to actually “see” who they have the power to be at their absolute best.  I know you have a good heart Dave, and you care about the world and the people in it.  To that end, I would like to offer you my services, If there is anything I can do to help you in your quest to help the world please don’t hesitate to ask.

I feel everything happens for a reason and there are no coincidences.  If you are meant to receive this letter, then it will be so.  If we are meant to work together for a greater purpose, then the universe will arrange itself to make that happen.  Regardless, I want to wish you the greatest blessings in your continued striving to be the best Dave you possibly can be!

Most Sincerely Yours,

Eric “Kristobaldude” Hepperle

Student, Teacher, Healer

Yeah, … crazy, huh?  Well, it needs a little polishing, but I’ll probably have it ready to send tomorrow and I’ll just have to find Dave’s address.

So, that’s all for now folks.  I’ll be sure to let you know what happens!

Have a fantastic day, and may you be blessed on your journey!

- RawLifeWizard

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Conditioning and Fasting

12/28/11

Well today was day 3 of my first month of fruit fasting.  It wasn’t too bad.  I have been on vacation from work this week.  Forgive me if this reads like a kindergartener wrote it, but I’m in pain at the moment so my thoughts are being pulled in various directions.

So, right now (4:38 pm CST), I feel mildly bloated, like I have to pee but can’t.  To me, based on over 200 of Dr. Morse’s videos that I have watched online, I would say that my right kidney is constipated and possibly adrenals.  Although another representative told me that if my blood pressure in both arms was 120-130/60-70 then it’s not adrenals.  I’m not sure that was accurate.

I have this whole week off so I reorganized my room, finally bought a TV, ordered Detox weeks 1 & 2  (should arrive by next Friday at the latest) from God’s Herbs/Nature’s Botanical Pharmacy, hung my ropelights so they illuminate the whole room very well, bought some tools from home depot, bought stuff for my pvc shoulder pole project, bought apples and grapes, threw out all my other food to eliminate the temptation, asked 3 girls for their phone number, began my fruit fast, bought a UPS and a wireless keyboard, ordered an area rug with guitars and such on it … Needless to say, I’ve definitely been busy!

Anyway, I’d like to tell you about a somewhat frightening thing that occurred earlier.  I had been typing at my computer – really hadn’t felt hungry all day, so I also hadn’t eaten anything.  I got up from my chair to leave to room for something and I instantly had this weird “spiritual” experience.  That’s the best way I can explain it right now.  Immediately after rising I found my head experience a strange sort of dizziness … almost like my head was swimming in some magical fluid with a sort of buoyancy and a vibrating aspect as well.  It wasn’t unpleasant, what came next could have been dangerous had it happened somewhere else though.

Within about 3 to 5 seconds after experiencing the weird dizziness I felt myself falling, as if paralyzed without pain, almost like being really high on salvia.  This has been occurring in very short bursts (about 3 times so far), since I began my fast 3 days ago, but this time was definitely the most intense thus far.  I found myself falling, like timber, toward my closed door.  I reached out with the intent to brace myself on the door frame, which worked for about 2 seconds.  Here’s where the weirdness comes in.  One moment, I was braced (with my arms out in front of me to keep my face from hitting the door) after falling, at a 30 degree angle to the door.  The next thing I knew, I was on my knees, on the floor with my hands on the floor and feeling the pain where my forehead had slammed into the door.  What the Fuck?

I don’t know if this is what happened, but to me, it seemed like my mind/soul left my body for months or days, then re-entered it again, only seconds later than the original space-time marker at which it left.  Was this astral-travel?  Did I just quantum jump accidentally?

Now I don’t know if quantum jumping and astral travel or out-of-body experiences are the same or related or what.  My mom only recently introduced me to the term “quantum jumping” and I really have no idea what that is.  It actually sounds like somebody is naming something based on the old time-travel TV series “Quantum Leap”.   I don’t know much about these subjects yet, however I plan to know more soon!

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Be blessed and have a pleasant journey my friends!

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Are Homeostatic Soil Organisms A Scam Or The Heretofore-Illusive Cure For Most Chronic Diseases?

12/02/11

HOMEOSTATIC SOIL ORGANISMS

I decided today to, first and foremost, talk about something that has been on my mind lately.  About a month ago I

Patient Heal Thyself - Jordan S. Rubin, 2003

stumbled upon a copy of Patient Heal Thyself, by Jordan Rubin, at a local Goodwill.  I didn’t really know what I was looking for that day, but when I found this, it was literally like a godsend!  Somehow, I just ‘knew’ that Dr. Rubin’s book would hold either the cure or a piece of the “cure” puzzle I had been waiting for.

Despite the well-given wisdom that you should not read on the toilet because it causes hemorrhoids, since I already have hemorrhoids and chronic constipation, I knew I was going to be in the bathroom for at least 20 minutes calmly managing my excretory processes as best I could.  So, I reasoned that with my busy schedule of working, coming home, eating, and sleeping from (unexplained) exhaustion, if Mr. Rubin’s book held the cure to my digestive issues, then reading on the toilet, in my case, could only help my situation.

Anyway, for the last month or so, I have been reading about 6-8 pages each time I use the restroom.  The main premise of the book, I would say is that Jesus and people in biblical and antediluvian times didn’t eat processed food, and they happened to eat (as they didn’t have an way to thoroughly remove all the soil from their food) and work and play in dirt which up until the last 100 years or so, has always contained thousands of species of beneficial bacteria and microorganisms that help our digestive systems process food properly.  Rubin also postulates (and presents interesting statistics and studies to back up his position) that the prevalence and over-use of antibiotics to cure infections in humans, and lessen disease in livestock, along with the chemical pesticides (like Monsanto’s Roundup) farmers have been using may have inadvertently led the the propagation of today’s chronic disease epidemic.

I’ll admit I haven’t finished the book (I’m only about 70 pages through it), and if I’m being honest, I don’t know when I’ll have read the whole thing for certain.  Thus the only thing I can comment on is what I have read so far.   Thus, so far the idea of Homeostatic Soil Organisms seems to make sense.  But, before I get to that, maybe a little more background on my issues would be appropriate.

ORIGINS OF MY MISERY

At the time I first contracted “whatever this is”, the first symptom I experienced was strange and frightening.  I remember sitting in my cubicle where I worked.  I did telephone technical support for a major educational software manufacturer.  Life wasn’t perfect because one of the biggest hurdles in my life (how to talk to women and how courtship worked) was all that was on

Wow ... Look how fun call centers are

my mind.  But, instead of actually going out (I was in college at the time, off campus) and talking to women to get experience and learn the do’s and don’ts of social dynamics, I just stayed at home like a dumbass every night.  I knew that was not the right thing to do but I was too paralyzed with fear (of approaching women) to change.  For at least 5 years from 1998 to 2003 I had a pattern of working some low-level computer tech/support job, and trying to learn various programming concepts at night, in my free time.  So it was when I was at work one day, as I was previously explaining, when all of a sudden, after getting off the phone with a customer, I was struck with a pain in my lower right abdomen, about 3 inches above my waist and centered about halfway across the right half of my abdomen.

The pain started about the size of a dime.  It wasn’t a stabbing, more a dull burning sensation.  But, over the course of the next 30 minutes, it rapidly escalated into a 50 cent-piece size area that felt like somebody had stabbed me, then lit a match or poured rubbing alcohol on my insides.  At this time, I knew very little about human anatomy and physiology.  In fact, though I got A’s and B’s, high school biology was the class I liked the least.  I didn’t see a real practical use for me to know that stuff.  I had rarely ever been ill in my life, even as a child.

Sketch of my pain I made for the Mayo Clinic

I figured “That’s all well and good for folks who are planning to be doctors, farmers, or veterinarians, but how is that going to help me build robots?”  But, fate has a way of setting all the pieces up so that you learn indelibly the why you need to know certain things that as a young adult you could really care less about.

RECIPROCITY

I truly believe I was on a crash-course to leading a life of lonliness and perhaps even a very Scrooge-like existence.  Not only did I not care about how our bodies worked (including our digestive system and our diets), to tell the truth, I really had very little empathy for people in general.  Well, that’s not exactly true either.  It would be more accurate to say my attitude was “live-and-let-live” or “you mind your business, I’ll mind mine”.  To illustrate the point, I had a girlfriend a few years PTMD (prior to my disease ™).  She broke up with me on New Years and do you know the reason she stated?  Of course you don’t, so let me fill you in.  She broke up with me because I didn’t get her parents anything for Christmas!

At the time I thought that was the most ridiculous thing ever.  My own personal belief was that if somebody gives you a gift (present, money, help, etc.), you are not required to give anything in return.  My reasoning was that (and this was fostered by my Dad’s teachings) if somebody gave you a gift and then was mad when you did not reciprocate, then it wasn’t really a gift after all.  No, it was a nefarious incognito bribe of some kind.  Though I can’t quite remember the trigger, I remember I had an epiphany that basically changed the course of my life forever.

EPIPHANIES AND LIFE-LESSONS

Here are some truths I discovered about life and myself in that one brief shining moment:

1) Everything Requires Maintenance:  Anything in life that you want to last needs growth and for growth to happen you need care and maintenance.  This includes relationhips, homes, cars, tools, machinery, pack animals, you body, your legacy, your reputation, …

This is what my car looked like, but with T-Tops.

absolutely everything!  Or to put it more succinctly: You have to take care of anything you want to last.  That may seem obvious to a lot of folks, but to hammer home how ignorant I was of this fact, the first nice car I ever owned was a maroon ’86 Monte Carlo with T-Tops.  I loved that car.  It only lasted 2 years because I didn’t understand that the engine needed lubrication so it’s parts didn’t seize up – thus, I never changed the oil!

2) It’s Ok To Ask For Help Sometimes:  It is an admirable and useful skill to rely on one’s self and be a rugged individualist.  But, sometimes, there are some situations that we just can’t handle by ourselves, and there is no shame – to the contrary, there is courage and strength of character – in asking for help.  Like Joe Cocker once sang “I get by with a little help from my friends”.

3) Make Friends And Choose Your Circle Well:  We are social animals.  We are designed to congregate in groups and build bonds with others.  It is our social network (who we surround ourselves with) that helps define how others perceive us.  Those who have no social network, also have no social status.  They are seen as broken and others are suspicious of them.

OF ALIBIS AND FRAME-UPS

Another important lesson I learned the hard, hard way is that one must always strive to have a verifiable alibi.  Now, when most people hear the word ‘alibi’, they immediately think of murder mysteries and CSI-type stuff.  Well, I’m not talking about for the guilty – I’m talking about for the innocent.

More innocent people are being arrested every day in this country

In my case, I was the unfortunate victim of a lunatic female who got me arrested by telling the cops that I was chasing her in my truck one night.  Fortunately for me, (I thought at the time), I didn’t have anything to worry about because on the night in question I was in my community college’s computer lab from around 6pm until roughly 1am writing computer programs, and the alleged ‘chase’ took place from 10pm to 11pm the same night.  I reasoned that since I was innocent, I would be found innocent, because justice always prevails … how fucking ignorant and naïve I was!

Yes folks, at 19 years old, I was somewhat introverted and subsequently didn’t have the social experiences that most kids had already known by age 15!  Unfortunately for me, I did not know the ways of the world and was blindsided in court by one particular piece of (shoddy but persuasive) so-called evidence:  Her mom was on the stand testifying that I had left threatening and abusive messages on their answering machine.

I had done no such thing, and I gave up trying to figure out the whole scenario – Why would her mom be lying for her under oath … just to punish me?  For what, … I really didn’t even know this girl!  I had only met her in person twice: once at church youth group, and we went on one date at a roller-rink.  She called me every day for almost 3 years and we talked for 2 hours roughly each time.  I’ll admit, as a mostly shy, lonely nerd I enjoyed the attention!  But after 3 years I knew I had to put an end to these calls that were eating up a lot of time, but we weren’t in a real relationship.

To be honest I really can’t make sense of it.  I remember a day came when I realized these

Biurny Peguero: Another female who got a dude in trouble by false accusations. The law never would have known if she hadn't voluntarily turned herself in.

calls were just eating up too much of my time, and they weren’t going anywhere, so I tried to politely tell her that she needed to stop calling me.  So, then she got mad and decided to get revenge on me by framing me a year later??  With her Mom as the accomplice??  Did she have a boyfriend that was calling her answering machine and saying he was me as part of some plot to get her mom to finger me as the culprit ?  Why was she trying to ruin my life??   Aggghhhhhh!!!

It really stil boggles the mind.  I gave up trying to analyze and figure it all out a long time ago, and learned to just accept that it was.  Let me tell you, it was as hard for me to do that as it would be for the quintessential robot to compute something when “that does not compute”… (here’s a recent news story about about a woman who falsely-accused a man and had him sent to prison for 4 years)

Unfortunately for me, my being right and innocent had nothing to do with the law.  I learned that in the US Justice system, it is not about who was right or who is telling the truth, rather, it is all about what is most believable.  In this case, only in hindsight, after many years, do I have some understanding of why the guilty verdict was laid upon my head on that fateful day.  It basically boils down to appearance and quantity of circumstantial evidence in lieu of a bona fide witness and my lack of a verifiable alibi.   Knowing what I now now about the law, I’d say when the state was deciding whether or not to try this case,  they probably built a “plausibility” list something like this:

1. Two female ‘victims’ of harassment and stalking by an older male who had repeatedly made threats enough to cause them the fear for their lives vs a belligerent disrespectful college student with an attitude.
2. Defendant can’t prove he is innocent because he has no one to verify where he was (alibi).
3. Newly created “stalker law” needed to be tested.
4. This is an election year so we can’t piss off any feminist voters.

CONCLUSION:  Definitely try this one – Easy Pickins’!!!

Had I been programming late in the lab with somebody else there, I have great confidence that this girl’s evil plan would have been foiled right there, but such was not the case.

When the trial was almost over I started to get the feeling that my lawyer (public defender) was only doing the minimum required of him and wasn’t really providing the best defense for me.  When the judge asked if there was anything I wanted to say on my behalf, in a moment reminiscent of Al Pacino in “And Justice For All”, I told the judge I did have something to say:

“Your honor, I am innocent of these charges.  I was in the computer lab at my school at the time in question and I’m not really sure why I’m here, because I am innocent.”

Around this time, I noticed his facial expression showing cynical skepticism.  I couldn’t help myself.  My lawyer wanted me to shut up and not make things worse.  But, for me, I was innocent and I was gonna make damn sure that was recorded for the record.  I continued:

“Your honor, I just have to know one thing.  I told you I’m innocent.  I barely know this girl.  I was programming on the night in question.  I have complied with the police.  I turned myself in, even though I am innocent.  I’m not sure what game these ladies are playing at or why they are trying to ruin my life but I can’t just go down without a fight.

So, now that I have reiterated, re-explained, and summarized all those things to you, I will ask you judge:  Do you think I’m guilty?”

My lawyer reached up and touched his hand to my forearm as if to say “This is not the time … you’ll only make things worse”.  But, I did not let that sway me.  Honestly, at that point in the trial I felt that if I was a third party (jury or observer) who didn’t’ know the truth, I probably would find it easy to find me guilty as well.

The judge hesitated.  Even though I had been a polite as could be, he was glaring at me like he had already made up his mind (this was a bench trial which means there is no jury – just one judge to decide your fate)  But still I pressed for an answer.  I felt I already knew what it was gonna be … but I just wanted to hear him say it.  For a moment I wondered if somehow he knew I was innocent and was in on the frame-up?  Maybe when he opened his mouth he would say something that would give him away.

I pressed for an answer again.

“Your honor. I want you to answer my question: Do you think I’m guilty?”

“Your honor.  I want you to answer my question:  Do you think I’m guilty?”  Now he was steaming – you could see he was about to burst, like Yosemite Sam when he gets frustrated by Bugs Bunny.  My lawyer to me: “This is highly unorthodox … blah blah blah.”  “No”, I demanded, raising my voice defiantly, and turning my gaze back to the judge: “I want to know if you think I’m guilty!”

“Yes! Yes!! Yes, I think you are guilty!!!”  Though he was furious, and acted indignant as if HEwas being insulted, I remember he tried to regain some

“Yes! Yes!! Yes, I think you are guilty!!!”

semblance of calmness about himself again.  As if realizing he had just embarrassed himself with his emotional outburst he then tried to regain his dignity by giving logical reasons why he felt I was guilty.  I don’t really remember much after that.  I was found guilty and got a deferred sentence.  For me, this was my first experience in a court of law and it was like a nuclear bomb had exploded on my world.  In the moment the guilty verdict was read, I realized then and there that the way I saw the world would never be the same.  My view of police, judges, and lawyers as standing for justice was shattered.

Wow!  That was quite cathartic.  I feel like for almost 18 years that story has been waiting to be told.  It is as if a great burden has been lifted from my mind!

(Wrote this for about 3 hours so now 5:26 pm stopping to watch some vids and eat some grub).

Thanks for listening to the raw, unfiltered story of my life.  The story continues …

Until next time, be blessed and take care!

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Collard Greens

Green Juice Fast – Day 10

11/20/11

Last night was the worst so far.  I feel like I kinda know what Jesus felt like when he was alone in the desert for 40 days.  The devil came to me last night while I was watching online entertainment … I forget what it was.  Anyway, a pain in my right side kept gnawing away like a rat through a sewer pipe.  That pain, my friends was hunger.  The devil crept into my mind and was saying things like “Forget your fasting … you are in so much pain, why don’t you just go buy a pizza … or wouldn’t some nice Doritos or those Avocado chips you love be great right now?  Besides, if you find a take-and-bake pizza joint like Pappa Murphy’s, that’s the healthiest you can get!  Come on … wha’d ya say?”  I had to to grab hold of my mind, endure the suffering, and look the devil square in the eyes and say “Tempting offer son, but I’m on a mission.  No thanks”

So, let’s discuss fasting in general.  When you really break it down, the simplest explanation of fasting is voluntary deprivation of all or most food for a given length of time.  In other words, nobody is forcing you to do this, nor is anyone keeping food from you.  You are doing it to yourself.

Why would anyone go through such torturous deprivation?  Well, fasting could be done for religious reasons, ritual cleansing, to punish oneself as atonement for some sin, or to purify and detoxify the body.  The latter is applicable to my case.

So, I press on.  Knowing that in the end, I will be victorious at healing myself of all my ills.  I suffer temporary hardships to reap longer-lasting rewards.

NEW JUICE BATCH

I made a new batch of juice today.  Felt pretty good that I’ve almost got an efficient routine now, and getting some recipes figured out really helps.

Today’s batch is very potent and consists of these ingredients:

• 1 fennel bulb
• 1 handful parsley
• 5 small lemons, peeled
• 6 small limes
• 1 head of kale
• ¼ head red cabbage
• 3 thumbs ginger
• 3 beets
• 6 large sticks celery
• 8 large carrots
• ½ bunch of collard greens
• 2 small cucumbers

Note: I did not use the garlic this time, as I felt it would contradict the licorice flavor I expected from the fennel.  Strangely, there is no licorice flavor at all discernable in the new mix.

SOME SIDE EFFECTS OF FASTING

Here are some of the side effects of fasting I have experienced between today and yesterday.  I post this so anyone reading this who is going through these same mysterious experiences can know You Are Not Alone!

• Do you know what it’s like when you look at a bright light for a bit, and when you look away, now there is a blotch of light?  I’m having that a lot more often.
• The itching in my lower region is still present, but at 90% less than 6 days ago.  In fact, it is now mostly only under my ballsack and at the ‘peaks’ of my butt-cheeks.
• Farted a lot today for the first time in about a week.
• Weight: 185 lb./Body Fat: 21.1% (down 7 lbs from last week, 2% bf)
• Lethargy & soreness
• Temporary dizzy spells.  When I got out of a warm bath I literally got dizzy and as I was falling, had to grab onto a wall for stability.  Though it only lasted about 20 seconds, for that brief period it was as if I was in a trance of some sort.  Like I left my body, and returned shortly thereafter.
• I think perhaps my sense of smell is heightened.  When my roommate is cooking pizza, I smell it and it smells delicious.

Well, that’s all for now.

Here’s wishing you all a great week ahead.  Be blessed.

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Green drink in gal. jug & frosty glass

Green Juice Fast – Day 9

11/19/11

2:45 PM

Today I noticed some interesting physical developments in my body.  But first, let me fill you in on events of the last 3 days.

When I last blogged I was telling you all about different butt-itch remedies including the peppermint salve and the bentonite clay.  Unfortunately, those remedies weren’t solving the problem.  Based on some research I did online I think I might have a severe case of candida overgrowth.  Candida is a yeast-like organism that loves sugar, so even though Dr. Morse says that people are born fruitarians, in this case I think it is better to do a all-sugar-free diet.  That means eliminating all the sugars (fructose, lactose, sucrose) from my diet until I have my candida balance (candida is normal and necessary in the body to a certain extent) restored to proper amounts.

This actually sheds some light on why the peppermint salve seemed to work, but then would get worse after a few hours.  I think the peppermint and the tea tree were doing their job in the healing sense, but I was actually providing a perfect environment for candida to thrive and spread by inclusion of honey as a base.  Now, don’t get me wrong – as I said I have used this practical ‘miracle cure’ for over 3 years for different ailments including hemorrhoids internally and have never experienced a problem like itching to this degree.  So my conclusion in this case is that the peppermint salve is not the right solution to anal itching because if the itching is a result of candida, the honey only fosters the growth of more candida!

So, is there another solution?  Yes!  Now, I can’t say that this is ‘THE’ cure.  But, what I can do is testify to my personal experiences during the last few days with this treatment modality.

I made a vegetable juice based on an anti-candida recipe I found on gaiagarden.com.  It consists of beets, carrots, celery, and parsley but I couldn’t get parsley so I improvised.  These are my ingredients I used:

• 6 carrots
• 6 celery stalks
• 3 turnips
• ½ red cabbage
• 1 garlic bulb, peeled
• 1 cucumber
• 4 lemons, peeled
• 6 limes, small
• 1 small handful of dill
• 2 cups organic babygreens/spinach salad
• 3 thumbs of ginger

Makes about 1 gallon.  Drink 2  12 oz servings daily – one for breakfast and one for lunch (I have not even been hungry enough for supper since I started drinking this juice).  If you are like me, this should last you 2 days at least.

Have you ever danced with the devil?  Has temptation ever summoned you?”

This quote from the seminal thrash band Slayer describes my mindset last night.  I avoided watching programs about food, or so I thought.  But, all I could think about was eating pizza and lobster and candy coated nuts and spaghetti.  Somehow, I ended up watching John Pinette: I’m Starvin’, on amazon.com.  Of course, most of it was about food.  It’s like, I can’t help eating great tasting food vicariously through other people. Lol.

Now back to the ‘cure’ I may have found.  Have you ever watched an movie where the hero gets injured and a shaman or medicine man of some sort tells him to drink this potion?  Usually the ‘cure’ tastes god-awful, but is powerful and does the job.  Throughout history, bitter herbs has been one of the most miraculous cures, but as the name states, they are bitter so not very good tasting.  My juice I made isn’t that bad.  I wouldn’t drink it everyday by choice, and it tastes better through a straw than drinking from a glass.  But, it is quite palatable.  It kinda tastes like a cold ceviche soup (my mom makes a great cold ceviche – recipe coming soon – not raw though, but still delicious!) without the seafood.

Reactions To The Juice

ITCH CESSATION

Well, back to the physical developments I mentioned earlier.  I noticed after the first drink that the itching started to disappear immediately.  I have been drinking 2 12oz servings each day for 3 days and that is all that I have needed.  I make a batch at night or 3 hours before work in the morning.  It lasts 2-3 days.  The first day I drank it, I started off to work with an itchy bum – within 1 hour I had significant relief!

NASAL SINUS IMPROVEMENTS

So, the itch has been going away – hooray!  But what else?  Well,  there has been a funny feeling in the bridge of my nose.  Almost like when the blood rushes to you’re arm after you have been sleeping on it wrong for hours (sometimes called “pins and needles”).  This feeling comes and goes in waves, but I have felt it throughout yesterday and today.  It is not at all unpleasant.  My best explanation for what this is would be that harmful organisms that had made their homes in my sinus cavities have been dying off because their food source has been disappearing.  Overall, I can breath significantly better than last week!

I have personally suffered with severe chronic sinus infections off and on for the last 15 years.  It’s weird – I’d have chronic acute sinus infections for 1 year or so, then they’d go away, mostly on their own.  I tried neti pots and flomax and other nasal sprays and saline solutions, all to no clear avail.  Although, from what I know now about our body’s natural detox function, I can review those bouts of chronic mucus and phlegm spit-up and chronic runny nose, sore throat, etc. as my body going through a beneficial healing crisis.  Unfortunately, I like a majority of folks, I didn’t recognize the pain and misery of my suffering for the natural healing process that it was.

3:26 PM

A little exhausted from sitting now, so I’m going to lay on my bed and watch something.  When I come back, I will tell you about the rest of the side effects of my healing including:

• Strange vivid dreams
• Taint smells like candy (no seriously.  I might go further and say it smells like candy corn or honey)
• Pain in mid right, right below ribcage
• Spells of temporary dizziness where I stand up and then fall (onto something soft I hope) like a cut timber.  This use to occur frequently when I was a teenager.  It’s the same feeling you sometimes get when rising too quickly from a hot bath, and I’m sure it has something to do with blood pressure.
• Urine: clear, yellow, red, sweet (12 or more times a day)
• Mind is clearer and I can think better
• Teeth have soft porous feel where metal filling are, natural bone feels fine and smooth, as well as porcelain/composite.
• The stretched skin around my anus from swelled hemorrhoids has tightened somewhat, which is a good thing.
• Haven’t pooped for almost a week now.  I’m not complaining; I don’t really feel the urge to go.

Also, I have only drank 4 oz of juice, and only sipping.  I have a strange pain in my chest cavity, but I do not feel hungry or starving.  Intriguing.

5:30 PM

Finally kinda felt hungry so I gulped the last 6 Oz’s of my drink.  Good thing I located a farmer’s market today … oh crap I have to go put stuff away!!!

6:20 PM

I’m back.  Well, I’m tuckered out and have other things to tend to so for now, here’s wishing you a healthy happy raw food healing journey

Green Juice Fast – Day 6

11/16/11

I’m afraid I’ve developed a severe candida infestation.  My groin is terribly itchy including my ballsack, my taint, my anus and parts of my thigh.  I’m starting to think that candida has been in my body all along, since before I began my fast, and may a root cause of my chronic tiredness, but then again maybe not.  The only thing I know for sure is it was with me at least 5 days ago.  It’s emergence really does seem to coincide with when I stopped eating microwaved chicken enchiladas, chips, salsa, icecream, hummus, and nuts, and started drinking more fruit juices in preparing to begin my fast.

So, did the increase in (and basically replacement of) fruit based juices in my diet lead to this seeming explosion of candida?

Remedies Used and Efficacy:

Peppermint Oil, Tea Tree Oil, & Honey:

This is prepared as a salve (as mentioned in this post).  It seemed to be effective for about 3 days.  Unfortunately, on day 3 of my fast it seemed to loose it’s efficacy which was baffling to me.

Bentonite Clay (the kind for internal and external use):

I have been using this for 3 days now.  The way it works is you mix equal parts clay powder (comes in a round container with an Aztec temple on it) and warm to hot water.  The instructions say don’t use a metallic utensil to stir.  In my case, I mix it in a plastic disposable cup (like the kind you find at keggers) with the non-writing end of a plastic cased writing utensil, like a sharpie.  Stir fast for about a minute and it’s ready to go.

Next, take the clay mixture and spread it down the middle of two facial tissues stacked on top of each other.  Spread the mixture the whole length of the the tissue about 2 inches wide.  Carefully pick up the Kleenex from the bottom and align the middle of the tissue with your buttcrack and the basically apply the clay by pressing into your buttcrack.  (This type of clay is all natural and is safe for internal use).  Then use the tissue and kinda smear the clay around.  The idea is you want it to coat everywhere that the itching is occurring.  Until the clay begins to set (about 20 minutes) you may feel discomfort and more itching because of the moistness which feeds the yeast (candida).  However, you should start to experience relief within about 30 minutes maximum.  One caveat however: this can get messy so I recommend sacrificing a pair of cotton underwear layered under cotton lounge pants to the gods of healing.

At first you might think “Rubbing clay on my asshole is going to feel like I shit my pants – No thank you!”  I know, I thought that too at first … that’s part of the reason why I bought this stuff six months ago and have only now been desperate enough to try it.  But, to the contrary, after it sets up, it feels kinda like a plaster mold and kinda like it’s not even there – it’s weird that way.  I think maybe it has thermoconductive properties that make it assume the same temperature as your body.  Regardless, this has proven an effective, if not strange, modality for treating jock itch/candida overgrowth with relief lasting over 12 hours.

Unfortunately, the one bad part is that I start to itch again around noon.  Not everywhere, as most of the clay is still in effect, but even in places where the clay is clearly sitting, the itching will just randomly resume.  Could it be that the random itching actually coincides with my lunch meal drink, which today was 4 different varieties of sweet apples, granny smith apples, pears, carrots, ginger, greens, and lemons?

9:34 PM

So, I’m sitting here typing this post after having applied a new “mud pack” (which is how you can think of the clay, I guess) and I’m feeling a lot of relief.  My last green drink was about 3 hours ago.  That is relevant because in my search earlier this evening to find information about clay, candida & juice fasting altogether I discovered some interesting info already out there:

• Juices are recommended for juice fast for person with candida?

Recommends juices made with these ingredients for candida sufferers:

• cranberries, broccolli, cabbage, carrots, cauliflower, celery, leafy greens, onions, squash, sweet potato and red pepper, garlic, ginger, parsley
• minimize fruit sugars as much as possible
• granny smith apples, lemons, limes and cranberries are the standard candida diet fruits that are allowed

• Gaia Garden Herbal Dispensary – Candida Albicans

Offers a step-by-step treatment for Candida Overgrowth

• begin with a fast to remove all sugars from the diet and reveal food allergies that often co-exist with Candida. Fasting also allows the body to detoxify and boost the immune function.
• fast on 3 days of vegetable juices. best is carrot (1 part), celery, beet and parsley (1/3 part each) and water.  unsweetened peppermint or chamomile tea are ok to drink.
• there may be discomfort while fasting as the yeast dies off and toxins are released into the bloodstream. Headaches, dizziness, bad breath and pimples are not unusual. Don’t worry about these, they will disappear as the yeast dies down. Try to schedule the 2nd and 3rd days of the fast over a weekend so that you don’t have to be energetic unless you feel up to it.
• when you break the fast don’t go back to eating heavy cooked foods right away or you will shock the body [Editor’s Note:  I learned this one the hard way.  When I did my first fruit fast I actually made that mistake and lets just say I lived in the bathroom for about 2 days after I first tried to eat cooked and processed food again!]

I’m falling asleep and I hungry … strange combination. Lol.  No it really sucks!  Argghh…

Well, I hope this info has been useful to some of you.

Have a blessed day!

Green Juice Fast – Day 3

11/12/11

Well today was day 3 of my first month of juice fasting.  I discovered that $30 of produce that will fit in a roughly 15 gallon tub will last me at least 2 days.  Really, my experience throughout the last year is that anywhere you go, a decent lunch is going run you about $20.  Sure you can buy a salad for around $7 to $10, but I’m talking about a balanced meal such as grilled salmon with steamed vegetables with wild/brown rice, or something balanced like that.  And that’s just lunch – not including breakfast and dinner!  The average cost for one person to eat a healthy, balanced, normal meal is around $60 at present.  I probably have enough green juice for at least 1 more day (about 7 12 oz servings).  Thus, it seems that my juice fast is only costing me about $10 a day – that’s less than it costs to have a ‘healthy’ meal almost anywhere else (in theUS that is)!

Basic Status

I haven’t had a bowel movement in 3 days now and I’m not sure when it will come, my stomach hasn’t really felt that rumbly.  But the last solid food I ate was crunch nut mix so when it finally does come I’m sure it’s going to be solid.

My cough that I was developing has all but subsided as I had predicted.  I credit the juice to fixing that.

My anal rash/itching situation has been subsiding.  I discovered the best solution seems to be applying the peppermint ointment, with strength upped to about 30 drops of both peppermint and tea tree oils per 1 teaspoon of raw honey.  Mix well the dip your finger in it and basically caulk your asscrack with it.  I’ve used this technique to heal cuts in the corner of my eye as well.  Anyway, after caulking from ball-sack to the top of my buttcrack, I digitally insert the finger to basically apply the salve to the inner 1 to 2 inches of my anus.  Essentially we are using the salve as a home-made hemorrhoid cream in this instance.  Then finally, squeeze about 2 teaspoons or so of raw aloe vera gel on your hand and use it to coat over the same buttcrack-ial region.  You may have to experiment to find out what amount of salve vs. skin gel works best for you.

WARNING!

Make sure to only use aloe gel that is APPROVED FOR INTERNAL USE – Most gels that you find in GNC or Vitamin Shoppe do not qualify and are for external use only.  In fact, I have only found one company that makes this stuff – it’s called Aloe Life Skin Gel.  Your best bet is to try a local food place or order from Amazon.

Last night I gained valuable knowledge and built a mock up for solving a ticket at work.  I learned how to use jQuery .toggle method, how to make a button or link that opens or closes using toggle or open/close using separate buttons.  I also learned to implement the jquery.wordWrap.js plugin which is cross-browser compatible and lets you set up a toggle or checkbox to wrap or unwrap a textbox (textarea form tag) on the fly.

Additionally, I tried to implement the code from the Simple Toggle with CSS & jQuery tutorial.  However, just pulling the code snippets from the site and running them together didn’t create a working application.  Only when I did a “view source” and copy-pasted the whole page source did I get an actual working application.  This seems like a nice tutorial, but time will be needed to figure out what the framework is that is needed to make it function correctly.

I also discovered that the easiest was to create a decent WordPress blog is to write it up in MS Word first, taking advantage of all Word’s spelling, dictionary, proofreading, and editing features.  Then, copy paste your article into WordPress’ plain text box tab (as opposed to the HTML box tab).  Save and upload and you are good to go!  This way is a lot faster and easier than trying to type everything in a 2 inch window and then manually updating every 5 minutes.  The only caveat is that what appears as one blank line between paragraphs in Word, shows up as two in WordPress.  Don’t worry about that, it’s just a glitch on cut-paste.  You get the correct formatting if you you click the HTML tab once, then back to the visual – voila!  Now layout should be good.

Finally, I have my eye on a nice camera.  It goes for around $200 but will be on sale for about $150 at Sam’s Club on Black Friday.  I think I can wait another week or two to save some dough, although I would like to get a picture of what I look like now.  I had been worried because the camera on my phone takes great pics from faraway, but up-close (arms-length) it distorts somewhat, which I find unacceptable for the types of accurate body-documentation photos I need to take.  Wait a minute …

You know how sometimes you run into an obstacle you can’t seem to solve, and the you go and ask someone for help, but in the process of explaining the problem to them you come up with the solution without them having said a word?  There should be a name for that, shouldn’t there?  Anyway, that just happened to me.  While I was telling you my reason for needing a new camera and being dismayed that I can’t take decent pics with my camera phone from 3 feet away, nor will it mount on a tripod, I realized that I could take my “before” body photos with my webcam, which still isn’t the greatest but will do in pinch!  Yay for autosolved ^{TM ©} problems!  So, I guess I just coined a new term today:

autosolve:          The process of solving your own previously unsolvable problem by explaining it to someone else, without them having any input.

USAGE: “Though I persisted for hours, I just couldn’t figure out what was wrong with my code.  So, I went to Tom for help, but while I was explaining the problem to him I autosolved it, so I was able to get the code working and turned in on time”

NOTE:                        The terms “auto” and “solve” have been long been used together in various combinations, which a simple Google search will reveal.  However, those have mostly been as proper names for companies.  So, this is indeed the first instance of the verb autosolve and it’s birthday is today (11.11.13). J

One immediate difference is that instead of sleeping in till 8 or getting up and still being too tired to function, since I started my fast 3 days ago I have been waking up each morning at 6:30 AM on the dot!

To Do:

• Use jQuery to dynamically create links for keywords on pages
• Design site so it still has the basic functionality if JavaScript is disabled on user end
• Raw and organic food locator with Google Maps API
• Haunted places locator with Google Maps API
• How to implement jQuery on my WordPress blog?
• Bulletproof web design that doesn’t rely on styling or scripting, but rather is enhanced by it
• How to add images as bullets?  Add different images based on li attributes?
• How to dynamically add bullets to paragraphs?  (replace p tags with a wrapped li and ul structure)
• How to include custom or external css file in WordPress?
• Best formatting for definitions?
• Best formatting for code in blog posts (programming fonts)
• Best free photo hosting for blogs?

11/11/11

(8:30 PM)

So I broke down yesterday, after drinking juice all day at work, when I got home and ended up eating some nut mix and some oriental crackers, and chocolate covered toffe nuts (delish!).   I was just way hungry and my burning hemorrhoid was really putting a damper on my day.  That’s why this is now the true start of my juice-fast.

I read a quote somewhere to the effect of everyone thinks that talk about farts and poop and problems with your butthole is amusing unless you happen to be one of the people suffering with those problems.  I believe that IBS, Chron’s, Constipation, Diarrhea, … even Fibromyalgia, are all basically the same thing.  That is, they are manifestations of your body’s inability to succesfully rid itself of toxins that have built up over time.  In my mind this would explain why many folks, (yours truly included), can go for 20 or 30 years never having a problem until all of a sudden, seemingly “out-of-the-blue”, they are stricken with some ‘incurable’ disease.

Some practitioners of Alternative Medicine actually hold that the whole concept of “disease” is a mindset perpetuated by the medical industry who’s underlying goal appears to be money rather than altruistic concern for people’s health, based on a misunderstanding of what is being observed.  I have to agree with them for the most part.

I laid on bed chest down last night after applying a some aloe vera gel internally and externally up and down my buttcrack because I had actually developed some kind of jock itch, but on my taint and around my anus.  The only thing that seemed to help is a virtual cure all salve I invented about 3 years ago, which is basically a mixture of raw honey, and about 10 drops of peppermint oil and 10 drops of tea tree oil.

The honey is a natural antibiotic and healer.  The tea tree fights infections and fungus, and the peppermint provides a burning/cooling sensation that kinda makes the itching go away.  Many of us are aware that histamine is the “itch” chemical that gets activated when you have a rash, or hives, or get bitten by mosquitos.  I suppose its likely that peppermint temporarily (effects lasting 2 to 12 hours depending on dosage) suppresses histamine in some way.  Anyway, all I know is I made it, I tested it, and it works and I’ve been using it for years.  In fact, I’ve used my salve for all kinds of things including ear infection (instant relief/3 days to fully clear), basic cuts (instead of triple antibiotic, although in severe cases only tripAB seemed to do the job quickly).  And much much more.

On the same note, after having innefective experience with OTC athlete’s foot medicine, and not willing to pay the cost to go to a doctor and get a prescription for high strength anti-fungal medicine, I looked into herbs and natural medicines, and it’s actually been so long now that I don’t even remember exactly how I came up with it, but I think i just read somewhere that peppermint oil soothes itches and rashes and such.  So, I said ‘hey, let’s throw some peppermint oil in with my hemp lotion and see what happens’.  And again, I’ve been using the same recipe for years as an athlete’s foot cream.  I mix about 2 oz of lotion with 10-20 drops of peppermint oil.  The only change I made was adding tea-tree oil, but about 5-7 drops.  Works like a frickin’ charm.

Well, I’m getting tired so let me just bullet point some random things real quick:

• in North Florida, where I live, it was freekin’ cold today (48 ° C).  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve come from Iowa where it regularly dips to 20 below in Winter.  But here in Florida, it was 80 ° the day before!

• I made my firs green juice today with my top-of-the-line, Dan the Man approved Breville $400 I-forget-the-name badass juice machine.  Ingredients were 3 types of apples including granny smith, gala, and some heirloom variety, carrots, celery, ginger, romaine lettuce, and collard greens.  It wasn’t bad.  It made almost exactly 36 fl oz which I poured into 2 Nalgene bottles.

• Hems not itching as bad today as yesterday.

• I believe due to the drastic overnight temperature differential I am starting to develop a tickle/itch/cough in my throat.  Also experienced hiccups today as well.

• Last night right before bed I made a test webpage that demonstrates jQuery, PHP, and self-posting forms, built with Komodo.

• Purchased and registered rawlifewizard.com and thrashmetalmania.com — Fuck yeah!  I can’t believe nobody had those yet.  But I lucked out and got what I wanted the first time … (power of attraction/secret anyone?)

• Brought rest of my nut snacks to work today, threw out last of my salsa and began the first step on a long journey towards complete healing and health!  I am shooting for a 30 day juice fast ( I did 35 days on nothing but grapes one time so we’ll see how this goes) … baby steps … and hopefully extend it to a year if I see that I’m continuing to get health and wellness improved by staying on it.

• Note, as part of the “healing crisis” that results from triggering your body’s detox process, I think that could explain why my teeth are hurting after drinking 14 oz of my green concoction.

So, overall things are great!  I made my 40 hours this week so I will proably stay home and do laundry and work on some programming stuff.  I plan to apply the aloe gel everyday this weekend along with the peppermint salve.  If all goes well, my fungal infection will be totally erradicated, and the cracked skin that resulted as a complication in my butt-crack should have almost completely healed.

Have a great night and Be Blessed!

11/10/118:05 AMWelcome!If you are new to this blog let me tell you what you can expect.  This blog is going to be RAW and UNFILTERED.  It is about the gory details of REAL LIFE and IF YOU ARE SQUEAMISH ABOUT BODILY FUNCTIONS & FLUIDS then This blog is probably not for you and you should TURN BACK NOW.  It is also about HOPE and INSPIRATION so there will be entries on the Secret, Power Of Attraction, Self Help, Tony Robbins, Napoleon Hill, and various other spirituality, healing, and green living topics.  There will be posts on NATURAL HEALING, and JUICE FASTING right next to articles with words real people use to describe bodily functions including shit, piss, poop, defecate, take a dump, bowel movement.  Further, I’m not gay either, however, since my physical problems mostly have to do with hemorrhoids and constipation, many of this posts will be graphic descriptions of various enemas, suppositories, and other insertions.  If you are not mature enough to handle real talk like this then, again, you should probably leave this blog.   However, if you are ready for a first hand “in-the-trenches” account of the the US Medical System, efficacy of various Alternative Health methodologies and practitioners, semi-medical explanations of trials and results of amature experiements in self-healing then please … read on!ABOUT ME:

I am a 36 year old programmer who has held various positions in the IT field.  In 1999 (when I was only 24) I mysteriously, after life a life of (what I thought was) almost complete health and having been sick only a few times in my life and never having a major surgery except my tonsillectomy when I was 8, contracted a case of chronic accute constipation which I still have not been able to rid myself of to this day.  I have seen over 50 doctors including General Practitioners and Specialist at various hospitals and clinics across the US including the prestigious Mayo Clinic, University of Iowa Hospitals & Clinics, and Oregon Health & Science University, to name a few of the best.  Despite their greatest efforts, these allopathic (traditional western medicine) professionals have been unable to offer anything short of figurative bandaids for my condition.  Therefore, I have turned to Natural “Alternative” Healing methods in hope of still finding a cure.

It is really ‘Chicken/Egg’ as to which came first, but my symptoms have always included:

• Pain in lower right abdomen which progresses up my middle right back and down my groin almost to my knee until I can pee or poop.
• When I pee I get relief and when I poop I get relief, but I usually pee when I sit to poop so is really just relief from peeing in both cases?
• Chronic constipation, not being able to poop for 3 days or more
• Chronic feeling exhausted, although appearing to be in perfect health on the outside …

Well, it’s off to work for me so I have to cut this blog short .  I am starting a new juice fast today, which I am going to aim for a year, but we’ll see what happens with my current job.  I’m still in the probationary period so, yeah.

A few more random comments before I close this post:

• I threw away my ice cream today
• I’m taking my candy corn and nuts to work for those guys
• I have to hit Publix or Winn Dixie and get some bottled green juice and orange juice before work today.
• I did a digital insertion with raw honey and it has offered some relief

Well, TCFN folks.  Be kind to yourself and have a great day.  Be blessed!